lena and sweetheart `-
Thursday, February 23
No AppetIte & in Da Black WOrld.
._.living In my LoNely World._.
Today I wake up..feeling abnormal.Usually will get up feel HunGry..But noT for TOday.I think my Mind can linK to my STomach...
duno why..i just went to brush my teeth , wash up then i went to FriDge n Get A botTle oF FreSH milk..Then Went TO change..My Mum Was Asking Me why i dun wake up early so that i Can Get a rid from my Dad n ask my DaD to Drop me off @ the Lavender ( where the immigration place to make Passport ) cos due to My Passport Gona Expire on May 2006.Damn Sad..Reminds me of EXpire..I just Recently ExpIRe on 26 NoveMbeR 2005 Cos i'm 21!..So i tOOk Bus 153 then drop off near UpPer Serangon ShoPping Center then Take Bus 107 From there To laVender..I just duno what i'm doing today..actually i could take Bus 107 Straight from Hougang INterchange..hAiz.XInG bu Zai Yen..(^7^)
so in Da Bus i Just ListEn TO my Mp3 n I Find OUt All my Songs ReLated TO THat " PersOn " Wah..Freaking no ChoIce but forCin mySelf to Listen..listEn n then to one Song " How Do i Live " - LEann RimmEs ..Makes My Mind AlErt..TeaRs Are gona Fall From my Eyes..I just Bare Wif it..i tell mySelf.i'm Old Enough TO be InDepenDent..I dun nEd " That PErson " to come inTO my Life makin mE so MisErabLe ..Why Must This HappeNS to me..I'm The PErson Who GEt Hurts..Its not "that Person " Who Gona Get Hurt ...FIne!..so i just back Listening to songs..then almost reach Lavender..i get dwn walk to the immigration to renew my passport..The person ask me to make payment ( i made it using NEts ) attach wif the applIcation Form n then Drop Into the Box..Left the building , I reAlise iTs's Raining..Oh Even Lao Tian Knows i Crying In my Heart..Thks.
so i tOok train from Lavender To Bugis . tot Of Having Lunch ,but dun feel hunGry so i tot maybe can go to Shi Ma lu (guang yin Miao ) to pray..so i walk n wah its so crowded..makin me so fustrated what happen ..tot 2day is weekday not so crowded..orh..it's jie hong bao ( from Guan yin niang niang ) borrow luck from the GOddNess of MerCy ..but gota return an Hongbao BaCk next Yr.Well i Tot why not still continue my plan to pray n see how after all since i already come liao then just pray n maybe its yuan feng bah to join the crowd for the " jie hong bao"..i bought some jossticks n a flower..then i slowly follow the crowd..i pray n talk to Guang ying niang niang ...in btwn when praying , tears drop dwn from my eyes..i also duno why..i wipe my tears..n went to the end corner to collect the Hongbao..after that i left the tempLe n went to Burlington Sq to meet Jenna for job interview..AfTer Job interview i took A bus to CenterPoint for another INtervIew ..then toOk Bus outSid OrcharD Emerald then to PS then change another Bus n proCeeD to Suntec..Finally Arrive Suntec..went to Find Yati..n Told her all my STories..i been Controlling till i cant Hold my BreathE!!!!. Finally during Dinner time then i got Myself rice n Sweet Sour ChiCken Chop + A soup..then i join Yati for a short walk..i waited for her till she gets off from work.We went home 2gether abt like 10+..Then reach home i got a Bath n then Went TO sLeepZzz..
Wednesday, February 22
Stress & HeaRtBroKen Me
.:. A DeeP Cut IN My Heart Tat CaN't Be HeAL.:.
Today i'm Having GeOtechnical Exam Paper @ 9am. Oh no..I actually Set Alarm 3.30am in the morning so that i could go through my revision again.well duno what happen to My Alarmclock...end up Wake up 4.55am..i duno why I like Suddenly wake up by myself..actuAlly Tot of not waking up Cos i Just havE A Sweet DreAMs..hAha..ThatS A nice ONe..haha.Well but No choice Gota Drag MYself Out of Da BeD!!..then went To Get a Bath..Make MySelf A Cup OF Coffee So that mY mind Be more aLert!well it did work a Bit lah..then continue my Revision for a while..Abt 6.30am left my house n take Mrt TO SCh..Order A Fillet -O -Fish Meal from MACdonald which cosT $4.90..Sit Dwn..Drink Another Cup OF CoffEe which is already include in my Meal.Wah today COnfrm later my mind sure SupeR DuPper HIgh..Cos it's My 1st Time Drinking 2 Cups of COFfee in A day Within like 1 houR..OMG!.so continue Study..
ten i feel That i StarT to get Panick and Nervous..HeartBEat getting Fast n my wholE Body Starts TO ShivEreD..WoRse ah..Cant Stand Tis Bunch of Guys Sitting Behind me..Talking SO LouD..Damn Sickenin..
Cant they Be COnsiderAte..Other Ppl studying NEed Some SilEnce ..I know They Also Taking Test/Exam..they mighT have Study oR THey TOo ExcITed FOr their Test/Exam..Fine..n Worse..they StaRt Talkin Louder..I got No CHoice...I Just SSSSSHhhh..So loud..i Got SO fustrated..Damn Freaking Day To start OFf..Argh..
like 8.15am i went up to 1A68 n saw my Frens were buSy reading through..i also Start to read my Notes..Abt 8.55am, mr N.Singh (Geotech Lecturer) ask us to get into Examination room..i sit dwn n settle dwn..Lecturer givin out exam paper n given us 10mins reading time..i start to like scribble some stuffs which i remember...9am sharp..
One of the Agency Called n ask if i interested in Sales Promoter/AssisTant For Kids Wear ..i told the consultant i give it a try..no harm n he say he 4ward me an email on the details of the interView on Thursday..then another Agency Called me ..A gurl nAme jenna ask if i interested TO worK in LaunDry..Oh No lah..I feel So Weird loh...Haha..But Aniway she ask me to go Dwn her Office On Thursday 4pm..ok..wah Thursday i gota be so busy running all over..cos I planing to go make PasSPort on Thursday Morning , follow by: Interview By Jenna , Then Interview By Aaron Client ( Catherine ), lAstly then Hoping to SUntec TO Find My Best Fren , Yati..herm..
after Surfnet, went to " CREATIVE " @ " JURONG" haiz my memORy Place Loh..cos Chwee lIan need To Get her SIstA Mp3 RepaIr...Wah she's Super Da Sia..haha..cos 7 peoPle Accompany Her juSt to RepaiR her SIsta Mp3..The Following Followers Are : MeidUan, Daphne , Myself, Kellbert, Kailong, Castor & Bernard..After repairing the mp3, kailong say he feel WEi Qing Shou Kun ( means he depression in Love ) haiz..i still RemEmber that Last Friday We aLso AccomPAni him GO SHopShop @ OrchArd..Tis FriDay Oso AccomPany him.Then he Ask if Anyof us want Acompani him go EsplAnaDE? We RejEct cos its bIT far n nuthin to do loh..so Boring..then we was Thinking wheRe to Go..<> haha..Finally Make up DecisIon we ProCeed On to WOodlAndS!..Reach liao..Went to Shop Then to FoodCOurt MakaN..I share A plate of CaRROt Cake ( Black ) wif ChWeelian n i got a DesSERt ( DuriAn ICe KaCHang )..Wah Damn Cooling & YUmmY..SerIously today i Dun KNow why i dun feEl Hungry.. Like Dun hAf Appetite.."Is it bECos OF THat ParTicular Problem of That PerSON" haiz..after FinisH Makan, went to Arcade Play Some RaCing Car Games "DaytonA & Bike Games " wah best men when feeling mooDy Ride Bike or Cars the BEst..Then went to CineMa to LoOk Out For New Movies Cos DapHne Want to Check Out Ani New MovieS ..i Out of SudDen Think of Last time i , Chwee lian & Duan Went to BEDok Watch THe William Hung Movie which cost $5 or $6..haha..a few ppl watch that movie..then worse men..when a few part actually its quite lame laughin , i n duan laugh so Loud n everyone was looking aT us..n one part where it's so touching again i n duan like cryin loh..then chwee lian Look at both oF us..we were like huh?why look At us?i ask chwee lian why she not laughing or crying?she say she dun think its funny or sad loh..i think maybe we laugh n cry just to distress ourselves...hAHA..so after that all of us went back Home..in btwn the journey back home , daphne, kailong , bernard , chwee lian n me..were talking in train..i 4get what we talk...then kailong n daphne stop @ Khatib..Then left me , bernard n Chweelian..we continue talk ah..i ask Bernard Why Dun he Consider Chwee lian..Then Chweelian Say she got someone who she admire liao..but she say maybe Shui Yuan , after like 5-10 yrs i mite see the both of them are couple..hahaha..we keep chating...then its like so fast Reach Dhoby Ghaut...so i n chwee lian continue talking. what job we plan to find after grad8...we chat n listening to songs from my mp3...i tell her i feel so sad today.n damn loh..my mum called from home n i want to answer my handphone just SWITCH Off..DAMN LOh..ARGH.TOday dAMn S**.Duno why loh..Slowly Train ReaCheS Hougang..I stArt to TUnE Up The Volume..Listen To the Song " WO Di Cuo -BAD "..My Fault..Not To RealIse That He's There..When I realISe That wAS too Late..
ReaCh Home Msg Yati that i Gona Meet her Tml n went For A bath THen Went to Sleep.ZZZzz..=(
Friday, February 3
What SHould I do..?!? I'm SO tirEd u Know.
I just Feel So tired n I JUst ThoughT oF hAving BreaK..Y ppl B4 Graduating they Seems to be so Slack , Relax..For Me life like So strESSfuL , MisErabLe , TIring , n so n so..OMG!!!How i wish i COuld Just like Be inviSiBle For OoonCe..Then i Will be Able to Look At thoSe ppl Who i been Wanted to Look Out for n abLe to See THROugh THeiR Mind, Their CharaCter n Etc..I juSt So TireD Wif thiS WOrd.. L.O.V.E does any1 knows what it means..can u explain to me.what then is called LOve???haiz..just reminds me of what one of my fren just chat online n say that i still the same..dun dare to tell that PErson ...THe latest BoybOy who i Just Memsmerise by him..It's just Another Story...hermz..now time gettin lesser..i juSt have to Make it more Memorable the time Which i have left for us during this fEw Weeks..i Just Hope THat I could Turn Back time..=(
